I have low expectations, but I wonder if there's anyone with headmates here. Doesn't matter the type, endogenics medians daemons etc included.

Or else, maybe anyone is interested in hearing about the plural experience, ie. having multiple people/facets in the same body

Not headmates specifically but heavy dissociative episodes / fading into different states kinda like osdd? I don't really know how to describe it and some of my closest friends are part of a system

>>2 Distinct states, without amnesia? If it feels like every parts are still a part of the same "me", maybe it's like Medianship?
Before having headmates, I used to have essentially 24/7 depersonalization + derealization, though identity-wise there was only me, nothing else

Huh that's cool, kind of a small world huh, that you can meet friends who are systems

I haven't bothered to figure out exactly what's going on with me but I do have what I call "The Hauntings". This mainly started out with one being a ghost and one being a demon from my dreams, hence the name, but things have changed. People have come, went, and died whilst rotting on the floor of our box for months.. I couldn't get rid of it. They've been around since my middle school days. Well, one or two of them have. It's a little complicated and, again, I don't really intend on figuring out my whole situation. Two of The Hauntings are from my dreams with both of them having made their appearance in said dreams back in middle school with one being a version of me and the other being the demon I mentioned.

The dream demon isn't that bad. Honestly, I was kinda worried when they weren't in their usual spot in the dream world and when they suddenly showed up and started talking to me while awake, it started messing with my ability to tell if I was awake or not but it's not that bad anymore.

The other version of me is...well... kinda a pain. He's petty and spiteful. He hate's anyone who's wronged me, even just a little. His anger is irrational. I'm surprised he's managed to be a reasonably father.. He's calmed down in the past few months but I'm pretty sure he's the reason I can't fully switch out with anyone anymore. I'm kinda just... chained to the front desk. Even now I can feel it. To be honest, I've always been hesitant on letting other things control my body again. My own body has taken to locking up even when someone else is thinking something risky. It's.. annoying but it's kept people safe. I have to be the responsible one.

Even if people I know are aware of my tales of ghost, demons, angels, and whatever the hell the new guy is, it doesn't mean they believe me. I'm fine with that. Frankly, even if it may seem cruel, we've agreed it's best to keep the amount of people The Hauntings interact with to a minimum. That's why I haven't used a single name for any of them. Things can get messy. Things can get complicated. I cannot check out as I am this body's unwilling failsafe. Things done by this body will fall back on me. I bare every consequence. Every punishment. Even if I don't think this body is mine. Even if I wonder every day if the 'real' owner of this failing vessel was taken over by me long ago, I still remain. Forever trapped in a body and mind rotting away.

I can see the fog.